I need someone to talk to. For the past few days things have not been going well and I've been in a sense losing a few friends. We haven't physically or verbally fought really, but I have been pretty annoyed with them recently and it's gotten to a point where everything they do just kind of annoys me. And it shouldn't be that way.
I think what it is this; I've been stressed out a lot lately and on top of that my friends have been getting on my nerves. I've been stressed about school, keeping up with my grades and such. I have a lot of papers to write and because I don't have a printer I have to pay ten cents a page and I have a lot of pages to print. As well I have stress money wise too. While at the same time I'm trying to transfer to CSU (Columbus State University). This requires me to go through the whole application process all over again. I have to pay the application fee, I have to apply for housing, I have to apply for food, I have to apply for FASFA, scholarships, all this stuff...
And I just looked back at the CSU site and it looks like it's already too late to ask for scholarships, crap!!!! I really have to cry now...I can't do anything like this...what now?
As for my friends...They're just annoying me because it seems to me that they care for nothing but themselves. I feel like I should talk to them but, it's hard and I don't know how to take it. I also feel as if they wont listen. And there for nothing will get done. But I also know running away will only make things worse and awkward...I guess eventually I'll muster up the courage to talk to them....hopefully before I explode in frustration...
Most of you might think I have a boyfriend I can talk to, and where that is a stress reliever for me, I know that he's stressed about all the same things. We can talk about it to each other but a lot of times I feel like we go in circles and a lot of times I get frustrated and that makes him more stressed and I want to stop doing that to him...
I honestly would feel better if I could talk to someone not near me...some people say strangers are good to talk to....but I dunno....
I'm sorry guys but I'm going to go to bed. I hope I can find someone to talk to soon... thanks for reading...
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